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IF I COULD CHANGE THE WORLD
I am the worlds biggest 'Mother.' It comes naturally to me, that feeling of wanting to make sure that everybody and everything is okay. I suppose that the correct term would be 'nurturer.' Because my kids aren't the only ones I try to take care of. It extends to everybody and anybody I know. If I know you, or know of you, and all is not right in your world, I want to correct it. I know that this is not possible, but it doesn't prevent me from trying. And I'm becoming more and more frustrated by my inability to fix all the things I see that need fixing.
My kids are used to me being this way. My daughter is twenty nine years old, and I will still ask her why she isn't wearing a sweater when I know it's cold outside. She just laughs and shakes her head, and goes about her business. It wasn't this way when she was a teenager. I couldn't tell that kid anything without her getting annoyed. "Mom ! I'm not a little kid anymore ! " Now she doesn't feel nearly as threatened by it. Matter of fact, I think it makes her feel good that I'm still looking out after her. Same thing with my son. It's hard for me not to say, " Be careful" whenever he leaves the house, after dropping by. He's twenty six ... he knows to be careful. If he didn't, my saying it wouldn't make any difference at this stage of the game. And yet, I persist.
There are a few situations in the lives of those around me that I can't change or make better, despite my desire to do so. This is very frustrating for me. Especially when the circumstances are so unfair. I know, I know ...life isn't fair. But I want it to be. I am a 'take charge' kind of gal. I want to take the serious illness from the person I know who doesn't deserve to be sick. I want to give comfort to the one I know who feels particularly alone at this time of the year. I struggle for just the right thing to say to the friend who feels that life is no longer worth living. If only I could find the words to make a difference. If only.
The truth of the matter is that I am just a human being. And, in the grand scheme of things, a pretty insignificant one at that. But that doesn't stop me from wishing, and hoping, and praying .... and trying to change things for the better. Even just a little bit. Just enough to make a difference. Maybe even a big difference. See .... I can't help myself.
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Hmmm... insignificant? Couldn't disagree with you more. As someone who has benefitted from your wit and your wisdom, I for one (and from the look of all of these responses, I'm not alone in my opinion) am grateful for your presence in this world... cyber and otherwise. The concern you've expressed for your family has been well documented and is greatly respected. But the way you've reached out to others to offer encouragement and dare I say it... HOPE! I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate your kindness, understanding, and decency. Hmmm, that doesn't sound like someone who's 'insignificant', does it? God Bless you my friend...
Mik -
Tina,
I know of one person 3,000 miles away. You made a big differece in his life just by being you. You found the right words. You knew the right thing to say. Now it is up to him to nurture someone else in turn when the time comes. You helped change things for the better, more than enough to make a difference.
--Tom -
Tina
If I have learned one thing from reading your journal it's that there is nothing insignificant about you. That you wish, hope, and pray for things to be better for people makes you a very special person, indeed! I know that you have made a huge difference in many lives. Just leep on being who you are. Never try to fix "What ain't broke." We all love you!
Sam -
My Darling Tina,
It is so obvious to me that you love and care for the people in your life. To think that any of your friends or loved ones would wish you to be any other way is, simply, silly. You are thoughtful and kind. It shows when you suggest a sweater or "take charge" in a time when someone needs comfort. It also shows in the fact that in as long as I've known you I haven't once read you "taking credit" or being boastful of any of the many kindnesses you've done.
For so long I thought it was natural for people to be concerned, compassionate, caring, nurturing, helpful, supportive etc to others. That was how I was shown love and taught to show love. But as I became more mature (don't laugh, ok laugh a little) I saw that it doesn't seem to be natural at all which makes people like you so very very special in this world!
In the Grand Scheme, My Darling Tina, you are just a human being yes, but you are far FAR from insignificant. You have made, and do make a great difference in my life even though you may not be aware of it. It is impossible for me not to say that I'm sure that you make a huge difference in the lives of everyone you touch. As you said, you can't help yourself. You make a beautiful difference.
Robert
1/9/07 9:52 PM
This entry lightens my heart. :-)
Happy New Year,
Gem :-)