The Thoughts From My Entity

Thursday, November 17, 2005

4:45:03 PM EST
Feeling Sad
Hearing Point the Finger by Program the Dead

Death and Life

Do you believe in destiny? Is it true our paths are set for us from the moment we are born? I know for me when I was really young like a kid still, I knew I was destioned to do something special with my life, I was so sure that I was going to be something or do something great before I turned 18. I wasn't sure esactly what at the time but I figured it didn't matter because it's destiny. So where I know now matters not for when the time is right I will know. I never planned ahead, things seemed to not ever go the way I wanted them to when I tried and planned ahead and that would just make me mad.

Then one day destiny was right infront of me, I didn't see it though. He was my one, the perfect match for me. When I finally relized he was the one for me, it was three days too late. He was killed by a drunk driver. It devistated me so bad, I was 14 and my best friend I've ever had who was so much like me in more ways than seemingly possible was taken from me. Just as that very day I was getting ready to go to school and tell him that I want to be with him for the rest of our lives. I remember everyday what made me glad to go to school was because I knew once I got there Michael would be at the top of the hallway and he would give me a hug everysingle day. Well I ran to the school rran through the people and down the hall but Michael for the first time wasn't there....

Ever since that day I feel as though the life I'm living now isn't what destiny planned for me, I know it isn't what I planned for myself. Something are dwelled on way to much but I can't help but feel like something in my life is just not right. I can't get back into the frame of mind I was then when nothing could bring my confidence in myself down. No words or other's opinions bothered me because I knew I was the best. How can I get the ambition to care enough to find my new destiny