The Thoughts From My Entity

Do you believe in destiny? Is it true our paths are set for us from the moment we are born? I know for me when I was really young like a kid still, I knew I was destioned to do something special with my life, I was so sure that I was going to be something or do something great before I turned 18. I wasn't sure esactly what at the time but I figured it didn't matter because it's destiny. So where I know now matters not for when the time is right I will know. I never planned ahead, things seemed to not ever go the way I wanted them to when I tried and planned ahead and that would just make me mad.

Then one day destiny was right infront of me, I didn't see it though. He was my one, the perfect match for me. When I finally relized he was the one for me, it was three days too late. He was killed by a drunk driver. It devistated me so bad, I was 14 and my best friend I've ever had who was so much like me in more ways than seemingly possible was taken from me. Just as that very day I was getting ready to go to school and tell him that I want to be with him for the rest of our lives. I remember everyday what made me glad to go to school was because I knew once I got there Michael would be at the top of the hallway and he would give me a hug everysingle day. Well I ran to the school rran through the people and down the hall but Michael for the first time wasn't there....

Ever since that day I feel as though the life I'm living now isn't what destiny planned for me, I know it isn't what I planned for myself. Something are dwelled on way to much but I can't help but feel like something in my life is just not right. I can't get back into the frame of mind I was then when nothing could bring my confidence in myself down. No words or other's opinions bothered me because I knew I was the best. How can I get the ambition to care enough to find my new destiny

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