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12:29:00 PM EDT
Feeling Sad
The Day After
Well, despite how I felt last night...I DID make it thru the night and am here today.
I wanted to thank all of you out there in J-Land for the beautiful comments you have left.
Reading them has really helped. I have known Penny for 26 years. That's a lot of memories for me. But in the time she has been on J-Land, it is obvious what a great person she was by the tons of friends she has here. I could not believe it the day I was online for her replying to emails and posting things for her while she was in the hospital. When I saw all those emails and all those friends, I just couldn't imagine knowing that many people online and keeping in touch with them like she did and knowing about all of you the way she did. I know how much you all meant to her. I am so glad she had all of you as friends.
After making calls and sending emails, I think this is starting to finally set in as a reality for me now. I was in such shock yesterday and just could not stop crying no matter what. I hurt so bad last night from crying so hard...my side ached, my face hurt really bad and my eyes were so puffy this morning....and all this was because of the selfishness...I will never get to see her again...I will never get to talk to her again...I will never go over to visit her and go for a walk and sit and talk outside at her patio table.....we will never go to Olive Garden together again...she will not be there to talk to and share all my problems with...I lost my bff!!
Now, today, in a little more clearer light....I do realize the good part of all of this. I do know where she is and that she is never going to have to suffer again and is with God in paradise and will always be with us in spirit. I do know all of this and believe it. She has entered into eternal life and is smiling down on us.
We all know this, we all knew Penny and loved her dearly. We will all miss her terribly.
Goodbye my best friend Penny.....you will live inside my heart forever.
Until we meet again...........
Cathie
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Sheesh, Penny, it's been about a year to date that you e-mailed me with the news that I was dreading. I was sitting in the hospital while my BF had open heart surgery on that date this year. It's been a rough week. I still cannot believe that you aren't still here. I was cleaning out my mailbox last week also and my heart stopped when I saw a bunch of yours. Love you forever....Chris
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Hi Penny, I miss you. I just decided a few minutes ago that I am going to do a walk for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society next month. I am going to walk in celebration of my John, and then I thought I'd also walk in memory of you also. The money goes, for one thing, to help find a cure to stop leukemia. I thought you'd like that. So when I do this next month, look down from heaven and root for me to keep going. Even though it is only about a mile, I am out of shape, LOL. I will be doing it for others like you, so they may get a chance to live.
Even though we miss you, we are glad that you are in no pain in Heaven. Look out for us as we do this walk next month. John and my sissy are coming with. We will fight to end this thing called cancer...
Krissy -
You just crossed my mind, that happens A LOT!
Miss you Penny!!
~ Jenny -
I've had you on my mind the past few days. I really miss you. Give my Mom a hug for me.
Hugs,
Dana
9/30/08 1:54 PM
You my dear friend will always be in my heart, I hope someday I still get those hugs you promised.
Love You,
Jenny