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Life's Defining Moment
Heather and Jen posed the question to all of their readers , What was your defining moment in life? So here it goes.
I would have to say that my defining moment would have to be finding out at 18 that I was pregnant by my boyfriend (now husband) of only 2 months. This was the day that I changed who I was and at 18 I wasn't even sure who that was yet, but I did know there was something someone inside of me that was depending on me for love, survival for everything. I had to grow up real fast. I lived in what you would call a sheltered life. I had really no experience in the outside world and was very naive to it all.
When I told Jason about being pregnant I was scared out of my mind because I didn't know if he would stay or run like hell, remember we had only been dating for 2 months and that's also the length of time we had known each other. I was glad when he stayed, but we were both pressured into getting married, him by his dad and me by mine. My dad was worried about how it would look to have an unmarried knocked up daughter and I guess his dad just wanted him to do the right thing. I was contemplating the whole thing not really knowing what to do. I asked my dad if getting married would make him happy and he said yes it would, so I agreed I would do it.
Now at the time I cared for Jason, but I don't know that I could say it was love. I mean do you really know what love is at 18. We didn't get married until one month before Jay came, but I knew then without a shadow of a doubt that I loved him and was in love with him. We were both pressured into at first but by the end we knew it was what WE wanted, not for anyone else, but for US.
The day I had Jay I knew from that moment that I had to put aside any of my self serving ways and make it all about him from then on, and that's what I have done. I don't really think about how I missed out on my youth because I know I received something so greater in return...my husband and my son. Now after 9 years of marriage and 2 kids later there is nothing that could have happened in my missed out youth that I would have ever cherished like I do my family. This is what has made me the wife, mom,sister and friend that I am today and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
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What a beautiful entry and so worthy of CarnivAOL! HUGS Chris
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Thanks for sharing that with us - your entry was pointed out to me through CarnivAOL. You're on alerts now.
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This is such a lovely entry, and so touching. Yes, it is possible to know what love is at such a young age. You were blessed, and very lucky to find someone that stayed and made a life with you. I'm happy for you, you sound like a wonderful person. My daughter got pregnant by the first guy she had sex with at the age of 19 and it was a big disappointment because although the guy hung around, he hasn't married her and it doesn't look like it's ever going to happen. She basically threw her life away waiting on this loser. Take care of yourself!
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aww...that is so sweet even though it must have been hard on you both. What a great memory. Hugs and GBU, Shelly
9/1/06 7:46 PM
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