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2:34:00 PM EDT
Feeling Quiet
Hearing INXS in my brain...
Devil Inside
Yes, I know it could be worse. Much worse.
Yes, I know that I have to keep a positive attitude.
Yes, I know it could disappear even, stranger things have happened.
Yes, they have the gamma knife, but no, it won't work on my tumor.
Yes, maybe that will change.
Yes, I know all of those things... I am a logical person, and a positive person.
However, I still need a little time to just 'get there'.
My poor parents.... this is just so hard.
My mother fighting tears said, 'I don't want to make this about me.... and it isn't about me, it is about you, but I can't believe I might have to go to my grave worrying about this and never knowing.'
Thankfully, we were leaving for Fuzzy's baseball game or I would have been a mess.
I am a mom, so, I TOTALLY relate and understand what my mom is saying. <sigh>
This just isn't as easy as we want it to be for any of us.
However, forward I go, we all go, as we must.
Give me a few days and I will be my usualy chipper self!
Fuzzy won his baseball playoff game last night! 6-4! Yay! It was a very exciting game, and a good distraction for as long as it lasted!
Championship Saturday is this week, and we find out later tonight if Fuzzy's team gets a bye straight to championship round, or if they have to play another play off game.
I will let you know!
be well,
Dawn
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Dawn, your ability to move on and deal with things just amazes me. I wish my attitude were as positive when I'm dealing with half of what you are. Keep a stiff upper lip, as I know you will. HUGS Chris
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(((((((((Dawn))))))))))) this is a lot to wrap your mind around dearheart. You do not have to be where we all want you to be emotionally on anybody's time table except your own.
Take the time you need. Let us be here for you and keep us in the loop. We will be your friends who love you and pray for you and read what you write. That is our part --- not to tell you how to handle it and make the same suggestions over and over that have already been made and discarded as unworkable.
We all care. So we will sometimes say the wrong thing just because we care so much. And thank you for keeping that forgiveness for us coming as needed for anything we write that is irritating or insensitive.
loving you
karyl -
I would be here for you even if it was to take more than a few days to deal with this. Friends stick around even with the bad. Life has a tendency to knock us off our feet, as if that wasn't enough it doesn't even package inself up neatly for us. But in the end we all soldier on. I could say a world of things here, but I imagine as you said you have already thought of a few of them yourself. I'm here, if you need to talk an email away. Wishing you love and peace! (Hugs) Indigo
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I'm here for you always and your in my thoughts and prayers. Jland is behind you!
Hugs,
Gretchen
6/8/07 8:44 PM
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