Carpe Diem - Seize the Day

This reads:  I'm in your physics lab testing your string theory.  I love it!   Hammer totally cracked up.  So did I.  Physics is such a part of our family culture.  (If you are interested in String Theory and it being made easy to understand, read Brian Greene)

On to what's on my mind... love... marriage... bickering... stress...

Oh yeah, it has been a fun 2 months or so here in Dawn-land.

I've mentioned that Hubby has been stressed in the last year because of work situations.  He really needs to put time into getting the hell outta this place, but alas, life keeps happening to put that off.

So, take normal family stress and add the stress of issues with work, to the stress of a flaring sick wife, to the stress of flaring sick wife NOW getting a brain thingy... well, you can imagine. 

It's enough to make any man a little stressed out to the max.

Unfortunately, that meant Hubby being way overstressed, and had him dealing with it all in 'his' way, and me wanting him to be completely different in how he was dealing with me.

So, there was lots of quiet, separated by lots of bickering. 

Thankfully, whatever flare or exacerbation of my disease(s) has settled down.  I am not having the numbness, tingling and burning sensations.  I have not had episodes of weakness.  The fatigue has lessened.  I am not 'normal', or anywhere near where I 'used' to be, but 'better' is what I have right now, and I am very happy with it.

However, the stressful tension between Hubby and I is still there. 

Hubby has tried to 'make up for' and ease it, and so have I, usually at different times, and with varying results.  Jokingly, I emailed him not to worry, he was still my favorite person to hate, and I loved him, just haven't liked him very much lately.

<sigh>  I wish money and time could just allow us to take some time for ourselves.  We desperately need that at this point, but it just isn't going to happen.  The kids come first, bottom line, and all extra anything of late, has gone straight to them and their activities, as it should be.

Marriage is a complicated thing.  I have likened it to a roller coaster at times, much like life.  Ups, downs, and careening curves in between, and all of it usually happening to damn fast. 

Sometimes all you can do is hang on for dear life. 

And, know in your heart, it will all be fine.

So, yeah, as Def Leppard sings 'love bites, love bleeds', but time heals... when the love is real.

Just need a little 'Patience'.  Wow, that all came together nicely didn't it?  lol

be well,
Dawn

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• #18 Comment from sunnyside46 
  6/25/07 4:40 PM | Permalink

  love is like that....when you can't stand each other, you just hang on until you come out on the other side of it.
  Love
  Marti
• #17 Comment from lurkynat 
  6/23/07 1:20 AM | Permalink

  I love you so much Dawn! so sorry for all of the stress Sweetie!
  lots of hugs and quiet thoughts sent your way
  love,nat
• #16 Comment from donejustwrite 
  6/20/07 12:23 PM | Permalink

  Hang in there...
• #15 Comment from psychfun 
  6/20/07 9:36 AM | Permalink

  And it is no different for single people either! HA! To think I love rollercoasters...ugh!
• #14 Comment from toonguykc 
  6/20/07 12:16 AM | Permalink

  You're right about the rollercoaster thing...you just have to hang on!!
  
  Russ