BREAST CANCER SUCKS: WALKING IT WITH A LESBIAN FAMILY

Well, my dearest Nance,

It looks like I made it through Christmas.  It sure didn't feel that way, but I am still breathing. 

Christmas midnight mass was VERY HARD w/out you.  I cried most of the way through it.  Kaycee came up to me during the sign of peace, hugged me, & asked if I was OK...she could see from the alter that I was upset.

The next day we went to my brother and SIL's & even though the kids were getting gifts & the Tree was lit, it just didn't feel like Christmas w/out you.  If it weren't for Kaycee, I wouldn't have gone at all.  But, I knew Kaycee wanted me to be w/her on Christmas Day and I needed to be there just for her.  So, I went and at least *pretended* to be OK.  I REALLY DID NEED to be there so she at least had me there for Christmas.  I guess to be honest, I NEEDED HER TOO.

Well, honey, I'm sure you already know this, but Kaycee & I are going to keep *our* tradition for New Years and go down to Red River Gorge for New Years Eve and a few days afterwards.  Of course we'll both be missing you being there (in body) w/us, but we'll know you are there in spirit. 

We are both looking forward to a few days away from home at that beautiful place where God provides us a *Little Piece of Heaven Here On Earth."  And, as you and I did/do, Kaycee just loves the cabins.  I'm so glad we got to go down there a few times as a family.  Kaycee has a lot of great memories too of you being there. 

We were supposed to leave today, but poor Kayc came down w/the stomach virus that's going around (mom had it too this week, and w/me living w/her, I JUST PRAY REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD that I DON'T GET IT NEXT!!!!  I called down at Natural Bridge/Red River Gorge, and Matthew the manager understood completly and said it would be just fine that we come down tomorrow instead of today and our deposit won't be affected at all; he'll just apply it to our first nights stay tomorrow.  It's so nice that we've been down there so many times that I'm on a first name basis w/many of the people that work there.  LOL, Kaycee thinks thats really funny!

Not much else happening except we're both looking forward to our trip.  I write more later, my love.

Tracy

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