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Feeling Mischievous
Hearing Verve Pipe "Colorful"
Guess What?
"I know I can be colorful, I know I can be gray"
It's an early edition of the 3rd Sunday Rhapsody, before I begin let me introduce you to my song choice for this week:
Verve Pipe "Colorful" written by Brian Vander Ark
The show is over - close the storybook
there will be no encore
and all the random hands that i have shook
well, they're reaching for the door
i watch the backs as they leave single-file
you stood stubborn, cheering all the while
i know i can be colorful
i know i can be gray
i know this loser's living fortunate
cause i know you will love me either way
most were being good for goodness sake
but you wouldn't pantomime
you are more beautiful when you awake
than most are in a lifetime
through the haze that is my memory
you stayed for drama though you paid for a comedy
i know i can be colorful
i know i can be gray
i know this loser's living fortunate
cause i know you will love me either way
move the hand as far as you can see
we live in drama but we die in a comedy
i know i can be colorful (when you live in black and white)
i know i can be gray (my colors fade away)
i know this loser's living fortunate
cause i know you will love me either way
Have you ever had one of those moments when you would hear a song and you would just be frozen within that moment until the last melody was played? That is exactly how "Colorful" affected me the first time I heard it. At the time I didn't have a computer but I did have close captioning on my tv. I had watched the entire movie "Rockstar" (not recommended for family viewing) before the scene would play with this song being sung. I was so in tuned and touched by this song, as if I had been given a revelation in itself. I remember rewinding the lyrics over and over in the close captioning until I had managed to write down all the words.
At this time in my life - I had just gotten out of a horrible abusive relationship and was once again embarking on my journey as a single woman. Somehow I believe this was my epiphany, my life changing moment. These words made perfect sense to me. To this day it reminds me of true love and friendship; someone who can accept all the colors of you, even the gray areas you may not understand about yourself. It's so simple...yet for me it was one of those "Aha!" moments. A revelation that if I believed and truly wanted someone in my life that would be there for me, it would and could happen. For anyone who has been involved in domestic abuse a revelation like that is considered truly life changing. It's an awareness that awakens within you that you don't have to be hurt or in pain. The possibility opens up that there are people who will and do accept you...just as you are, flaws and all.
When I moved from my last apt. the paper I had written those lyrics on was buried and forgotten. A couple years ago, going through remnants left over in boxes in the basement - I came across them again. Reading those lyrics 2 1/2 years after moving on with my life, I couldn't help but smile and feel a gentle tear glide down my face. Some revelations are life changing...a whole different lifetime later the words in this song still resound with strength and courage within me.
"I know I can be colorful, I know I can be gray,but this loser's living fortunate, cause I know you will love me either way..."
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Music has been a constant in my life. A background, a foreground, and right by my side. That you can connect to it still, is a wonderful thing.
Hugz, Leigh
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My favourite lyric that just takes my breath away is from The Jam’s great song, That’s Entertainment. I have no idea what “Two lovers kissing amongst the scream of midnight/Two lovers missing the tranquillity of solitude” means, but that is sheer poetry: in fact the whole song is better than anything that Keats, Tennyson or Hardy ever wrote. Why couldn’t I write a critique about this in English class at school instead of some of the dreary poems that I had to read and write about?
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Oh how I love that song, thanks for sharing it...and I agree with you!
Hugs and love...
Joyce -
Sorry I have been away so long, dear friend. I have been sooooooooo busy. It pains me to read you were ever in an abusive relationship. No one should have to live like that. Glad you got out of it.
Blessings!~
Susan
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5/7/08 5:31 PM
Love ya,
Beth
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