Never Give Up

Jeff,

I’ve been writing this letter in my head all day long and still don’t have the words right...

I was going to ask you a question, but I’ve decided against that, instead I’m just going to let you know what’s going on in my head...

First off I was going to ask you if I should keep dating. I know I told you I’ve had a lot of men wanting to date me off that singles.net ad I put up, and I don’t want to lie to anyone or give them false hope, so I’ve decided that I am NOT going to date anyone besides you.

I would rather spend two months waiting to spend one day with you then spend every day for two months with someone else.

I am not asking you not to date anyone else... although... well, you know how I feel about you. I’m just asking you to let me know if I’m completely wrong about us, if there is no chance that we can be together for real, please just say so. I just have my hopes up right now, when you called me "your woman" at Joey’s the other day I felt my heart skip a beat... It just meant too much to me... I don’t want to have my hopes up if I’m just being stupid here.

I’m not asking for any kind of commitment from you, or anything set in stone... just needing to get an idea of how you feel at this point... I hope I’m not being too pushy... I know I tend to be too pushy sometimes, if I am, just say so!

For the record, I want to be with you. I want to be able to say that I am your girl friend. I want... whatever you can give.

Love,

Shadie

So I have no idea what his reaction will be... We've been together before but it was always just as "friends with benifits" but this time feels different.. the "Friends with benifits" was all he was willing to give before... I THINK he may be feeling differently this time... Am I being too pushy???? I have no idea, but felt that I had to ask.

I hope to GOD that he reads and answers today... I'm absolutly frazzeled to hear what he has to say!