Learning to Love ... ME

Yesterday was a long, hot and dirty day.  If I were to add water to myself, I am sure I’d been a perfect mudpuppy.  My feet ached so much over night that I didn’t rest well, but having bone spurs in both feet will cause that.  It doesn’t matter what type shoes I wear, just the inflammation will cause the pain.  I came home last night after packing up the parking lots, showered, and headed to bed.  I didn’t sleep well, due to the aches, but would pray throughout the night as I laid there awaiting sleep to over come me.  Finally, I ask the Lord to help me put my thoughts aside and to help me rest.  I awoke this morning rested.  I slept in, and then worked on my books.  I balanced my feeble check book and paid out the bills that I continue to have to pay for a mistake I made in trusting someone.  It seems like I’ll forever be reminded of misplaced trust.  Oh well, God knows all about this and in his time, I am sure he’ll remove this from me.

This morning the sun is brightly shining, the wind is blowing once again and the air is just crisp…I love days like this when the humidity is low and you feel that your lungs are filled with the freshness of springtime.  I look around me at the beauty I see God has placed before me and I am amazed that one person has the power to do so much.  So when I pray, I know God can do whatever he chooses…if he can form the toenails on a tiny baby, the down on a duckling, the abilities to form all that we know with the wave of hand, he can make miracles happen for even someone like me.

When I was growing up, I was taught there are no stupid questions, and if you never ask, then you’ll never know.  So I do ask, I ask God as the Father he isto me, to guide me and to help me when things are rough.  I ask him to give me patience, love and understanding for those that try me.  I ask that he continue to help me to see the humor in every day life… and to let my laughter ring out true and free…  I ask that he guide me to where I need to be and to place people around me that need to feel his love.  I have been blessed with so many things by my Heavenly Father… and I praise his name.  I thank him for the beautiful family I have…for little brothers that try me and keep me on my toes, and yes, whom sometimes I’d love to pinch really hard, I thank him for the pain I feel in my feet, because my legs and feet were strong enough to carry me yesterday… I am blessed. 

Dear Heavenly Father, I come to You once again witha heart that is over flowing with awe at the love You’ve given to me.  I pray Lord that You show me how to share it with those who need to know of You.  I Thank You Lord for all I am… for all You’ve blessed me with…and Lord I praise Your name.  Thank You for my family, for the friends I have; the good neighbors and people who I have yet to meet.  Be with those Lord who are struggling to understand where they are in this life.  Be with those who live on the edge of reality, help them realize what is real and what only wishful thinking is.  I pray Lord that You heal the ones sick of mind and or body and that in Your time, You show us all the perfect plans You have for us.  Lord thank you for yesterday, for the new friends and for the ones I have known for so long… be with the race fans who are traveling, keep them safe… In the name of my Savior Jesus Christ… Amen.

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