Learning to Love ... ME

Things happen.  Good things, not so good, accidents, meeting someone who just knows and understands what you are going through…a multitude of circumstances.  Have you ever wondered if you've been face to face with an Angel?  There are times in my past that I can remember close calls while driving, feeling really down and out and lost when Mom or Daddy were so sick, needing someone to talk with and there would be just the nicest person in the waiting room.  Or a good friend would call and ask if they could go with me for visiting… in most ICU caring areas of the hospital, you get ten minutes every couple of hours to visit.  These friends who'd call and ask to go with me would gladly stay beyond the unit doors if another family member had been there too.  They were there as support.  I can remember after telling my comatose mom it was okay to turn loose, how I could barely breathe, and the tears that were running down my face.  Meeting a nurse in the elevator, then a doctor entered as well… both of them took the time to talk with me, to comfort me and to tell me that I had made the best decision to tell Mom she could go to God.  I knew Mom well enough to know that she would hang on as long as possible if she wasn't told we'd be okay.  I can see now that the nurse and the doctor were Angels, God sent these folks to me to comfort me.  I was upset…alone and he knew I needed support.  God does that, he watches over you and he sends his Angels to help you.  Its how he is, he sends his love through his helpers ...

I believe in Angels, Heaven, Hell and the Devil…Believing in God and the wonders of his blessings have never been a doubt in my mind.  Even when times were so tight and I would wonder where we'd manage to get money for the next month's rent, groceries, payments, I would pray and keep my faith. 

I remember my Great Grandmother, Edna Mae, (typical southern name, huh?) telling me there were wooly boogers just beyond the porch on her big farm house…that used to scare me to think there were things in the darkness that I couldn't see.  But, if I had to go to the bathroom, it was just off the side porch, I had to go so close to the barrier where those wooly boogers may be.  (It was an added feature that had been added to the house years after it was built, flushing toilet, and bathtub, but NO heat!  It was heated by a small space heater and before bath time someone would turn it on, and then make sure I was really careful not to touch it.)  I would hate to have to venture outside the safety of the cozy house to go.  Mawsie, as we called her taught me to believe that God and his Angel would be with me.  I believed her, and I'd always pray that God would send his Angels to keep the wooly boogers at bay until I was able to finish and return back to Mawsie's lap.  She died when I was twelve, and my great grandpa… Papaw when I was 13.  Those memories make me smile now… but I trusted.  I trusted in the words and wisdom of those who loved me dearly.

Our Lord loves us all dearly; he is our Heavenly Father in that he wants us to feel his love and to feel safe.  He wants us to come to him in prayer and to ask for forgiveness of our sins.  He is a loving and giving God.  And when he can not be there for us, there's no doubt in my mind he sends one or two, maybe more of his Angels to carry out his work.  I stand in awe of all the blessings he's given me, and pray that he surrounds my family; friends and myself once again… keep us safe, Lord in your loving arms.

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you, thank you once again for the Angels you've sent to help me when I needed comfort, or to be kept safe.  Thank you for the times I've sat and talked with you and for your filling my heart with love and understanding of what is happening around me.  I thank you Lord, for the wonderful family, friends, neighbors and strangers who have come into my life.  Lord, be with us this weekend, keep us safe from harm and give us strength to do what we need to do.  Lord be with the race car drivers as they challenge each other for the winner's position…send your Army of Angels to surround us and keep us all from harm.  Lord, I pray for all the sick, the sick of body and the sick of mind.  Lord I pray for understanding of those struggling with the truth.  Help me Lord to have more compassion so as not to judge their assaults on me.  You know Lord as I do what the truth is…Dear Heavenly Father, I smile as I feel you refill me with your spirit and I know that today will be a glorious day… In the name of my Lord and Savior, amen.

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