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Parting with her past...
This is what I've spent the past two days on. Seems Isabel is starting an online shop for gently used baby clothes -- fabulous, fabulous idea -- and since I had some things I was going to put in a garage sale anyway, I told her I would send them to her. So I've been digging out Jacy's old clothes, shoes, photo frames, and hats, and packing them all into a box, neatly ironed and smelling still a little like her hair, to make the trip to Isabel's house.
If I'm honest, there's a bit of sadness in parting with these things. When I gave birth to her, we didn't plan on having any more children. We'd even planned on having my tubes tied a few weeks after her birth. But then something stopped me. I couldn't go through with it. When Hel mentions now that he'd like to have a vasectomy, I stall. It's not that I want another baby. I have the best of both worlds already -- a son, a daughter. Two is more than enough for our family. I just hate the thought of that option being closed to me, you know? I'm sure a lot of women can relate to that.
Still... I'm letting go of the things. It's part of the process. And since my sister already has more than enough hand-me-downs, I just hope these items get some good use. It's amazing to me all the snapshots of memory I can attribute to each piece, remembering her wearing them, the weight of her small body, the smell of her hair that still permeates the fabric. Even the sound of a small rattle evokes the scent of baby powder, a wet kiss, the lyrical tinkle of her tiny voice. I'm shocked at how much she's grown. But reminded too that she's still small... and that I should enjoy her while it lasts.
Anyway... as a side note, I wanted to mention that we didn't get that renter on Monday. But we did manage to sign papers on the car refinance and did even better than we expected on the payoff and interest rate, bringing our monthly savings to $125.00 as opposed to $88.00. So I'm tickled pink! Valentine's Day was quiet, but wonderful. And my computer still isn't fixed, but I'm finding ways to work around it. Jenn should be down before too long to help me with it anyway. So life is definitely good. J
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Hey Slowmo,
Where ya at? -
Getting rather worried... hope everything is okay with you and yours... that you're just taking a break. We miss you! :hugs: - K. (and B too!) :)
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Slo-girl...we're all longing for your wit and sparkle.
Hope all is well. We miss you oodles. And I do mean
OODLES! <grin>
Love,
Bridgett -
Be careful---I gave away all my baby clothes, and got pregnant unexpectantly two months later. :-)
4/16/05 9:10 AM
I know how you feel, I remember when I sold Josiah's clothes at a car boot I was so tearful! He's 6years old now but I was watching all that were buying the things and they seem to be going to people that really needed them so that was fine! I Love your Journal
Angela