Lessons From The Heart...

I'm back here to the only place where I feel comfortable expressing myself without having anyone look down on me. I don't know what's wrong with me lately, I'm just so sad and depress for weeks now. It seems all I do is think about so many things that are going on around me and it just hurts my heart.

 The war is really one issue that is destroying part of me; so many people dying, so many Soldiers losing their lives for what? I feel this war has gone long enough and they should bring our Troops home already. I have a dear friend out there that I don't know anything about him for 6 months now, not one bit of news of him and it's ripping me apart inside. It's hard not knowing anything but it's even harder not having any way of communicating with that person. I miss him so much. I miss his wisdom, the way he used to give me advice and encouraging words. Come home soon.

I'm also worry worry about my health issues. I'm just tired of going to the Doctors and getting bad news all the times. Don't get me wrong I do have my faith still but I'm also human and I do fall. I'm just thankful that when I do fall I always have the word of God to lift me back up but somehow this time it's just so much harder to get up from this fall.

 I'm spiritually tired and emotionally drained. I need some prayer warriors to boost me up, lift me up unto God. I also want everyone to keep our troops in their prayers but not only them, but their children, their wives, husbands, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters and family in general because they too need strength, encouragement and our support. God bless you!

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 In everything give God thanks. We need to stop for a minute and give god thanks for watching over us, our kids, our family and friends. As most already know about the many lives that were lost yesterday by someone who to me must have been filled with demons to have done what he did.

                

                  

                                    

                                        

                                         

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I wanted to repost this message for the many souls who need to read this . I do hope it touches your heart and fill that void inside. If you like you may pass it along.

This is God speaking

Today I will be handling all of your problems. Please
remember that I do not need your help.
If life happens to deliver a
situation to you that you cannot handle,
do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly
put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box.


It will be addressed in
My time, not yours. Once the matter is
placed into the box, do not hold on
to it. If you find yourself stuck in traffic;
Don't despair. There are
people in this world for whom
driving is an unheard of privilege.


Should you have a bad day at work;
Think of the man who has been out of work for
years. Should you despair over a
relationship gone bad; Think of the
person who has never known what
it's like to love and be loved in return.


Should you grieve the passing of
another weekend; Think of the woman in dire
straits, working twelve hours a day,
seven days a week to feed her
children. Should your car break down,
leaving you miles away from
assistance; Think of the paraplegic who
would love the opportunity to take that walk.


Should you notice a new gray
hair in the mirror; Think of the
cancer patient in chemo who wishes she
had hair to examine. Should you find
yourself at a loss and pondering what
is life all about, asking what is my
purpose? Be thankful. There are those who
didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.


Should you find yourself
the victim of other people's
bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities;
Remember, things could be worse. You
could be them!!!!

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Hello all:

 I just wanted to state something and make things clear to some who read my journal. First of all, I really don't have to come here and write in my journal for others to read, if I chose to do so is simply because maybe what I've gone thru and still going thru may help someone else deal with their problems, issues or sickness.

 Since I first started writing in my journal years ago, I've been open and wrote down all my problems, issues, heartaches and sickness, just because I want to and I do have prayers warriors that pray for me here. I don't do it to get any pity or to make anyone like me because I've always been a loner. The reason why I am saying this because it seems other feed on others mishappenings and it makes me sad how others can be so sarcastic in what they write. Maybe I'm reading them wrong but from my point of view it seems that way.

 So to answers to those who are in doubt, yes I am still sick and been sick for a long time now. There were time when I went into remission but as everyone knows sickness do return. I've been battling with a brain tumor since 2001 and as yet all I get is treatment due to the fact that it's in a dangerous place-my brainstem, so for now they are dealing with it the best way they can. So yes, I am still sick and yes I still have faith and one day I will stand a yell out the top of my lungs that I AM HEALED by the grace of God! Amen.

Now if anyone have doubts, you have two choices; 1. You can email me personally at Smartypantzjessi@aol.com or you have a choice not to read my journal entrees. And for those of you who have read my journal and send out prayers and encouraging words, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. May God bless you all.

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Hello to all those who still come here from time to time and read my journal. I just want to say that I am doing ok and that things are getting better for me, slowly but surely with the grace of God.

I also want to thanks those who constantly pray for me and have positive thoughts for me. Without the prayers I don't think I would be here today.

I don't have much to say right now, but I just wanted to say hello to my readers and thank you for your prayers. I'll be back as soon as I can to write more on my journal. It's time I get back to writing in here again. God bless.

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Imagine you and the Lord Jesus are walking down the road together. For much of the way, the Lord's footprints go along steadily, consistently, rarely varying the pace. But your footprints are a disorganized stream of zigzags, starts, stops, turnarounds, circles, departures, and returns.

For much of the way, it seems to go like this, but gradually your footprints come more in line with the Lord's, soon paralleling His consistently. You and Jesus are walking as true friends! This seems perfect, but then an interesting thing happens: Your footprints, that once etched the sand next to Jesus', are now walking precisely in His steps.

Inside His larger footprints are your smaller ones; you and Jesus are becoming one. This goes on for many miles, but gradually you notice another change. The footprints inside the large footprints seem to grow larger. Eventually they disappear altogether. There is only one set of footprints; they have become one. This goes on for a long time, but suddenly the second set of footprints is back. This time it seems even worse! Zigzags all over the place. Stops. Starts. Deep gashes in the sand. A veritable mess of prints. You are amazed and shocked. Your dream ends.

Now you pray: "Lord, I understand the first scene with zigzags and fits. I was a new Christian; I was just learning. But you walked on through the storm and helped me learn to walk with you." "That is correct." "And then the smaller footprints were inside of Yours, I was actually learning to walk in Your steps; followed you very closely." "Very good. You have understood everything so far." "When the smaller footprints grew and filled in Yours, I suppose that was becoming like you in every way." "Precisely." "So, Lord, was there a regression or something? The footprints separated, and this time it was worse than at first. They were a mess, all over the place. Could you explain that?"

There is a pause as the Lord answers with a smile in his voice. "You didn't know? That was when we danced."

To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven. A time to weep, a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance. Ecclesiastes 3:1, 4

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Dear God:

I want to thank you for what you have already done.
I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards,
I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better,
I am thanking you right now

I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me,
I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears,
I am thanking you right now.

I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves,
I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet,
I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job,
I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief,
I am going to thank you right now.

I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed.
I am thanking you right now.

I am thanking you because I am alive.
I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties.
I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I am thanking you because you have not given up on me.
"I am thanking you because you have brought me from a mighty long way."
God is just so good, and He's good all the time.

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Greetings all,

 Once again I'm here to do an update. Well, I hope everyone had an awesome Thanksgiving weekend and that God send blessings upon you all. Can you imagine how fast time is passing us by? To think Christmas is so close by, just as close as a blink of an eye(sort of speaking). I can't believe another year has gone by.

As for myself, I'm doing well, thank God. I spend my Thanksgiving with some dear friends who stuff me up with food and goodies. I almost felt like that turkey on the table, lol but I did have an awesome time and I thank God that even though I was not around family, I had friends whom I consider to be my family and I had a blessing time. I also thank God I was able to have my health under control to enjoy my Thanksgiving(Thank you Jesus).

 Now is time for the Christmas shopping and running around like a chicken without it's head, lol. Make sure you double check your list that you don't forget anyone. If anyone would like to give me a gift, all I want is your prayers, that God bless me with more health and that this tumor finally go away for good. After all when two or three agree in His name, all prayers have to be answered cause God's word is not void(Amen).

I want to wish everyone a safe holiday shopping and please be careful while shopping because this is the time when thieves go out to steal. Don't let anyone steal your joy and don't bring down your guards during this holiday shopping season. May God cover you all under His blood and I rebuke all works of the devil in the name of Jesus, because this is the time we are fighting a spiritual battle and if you don't have God in your life, you will LOSE!

I'll be back soon with another update. God bless you all and pray for me as I pray for you. Enjoy your holiday shopping and don't forget my Christmas Present mention above, it's free. Love you all!

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