Loopy loo in from the cold

well I didnt sleep last night, awake at 3a.m. No its not my birthday but I am going to visit Pam today and being taught (maybe) about how to get round J Land. Yesterday was a bad day, slept on and off and did nothing constructive except moan as I thought I had slipped back into the black hole. The night before a member of staff visited and I could not help but ask about work. Its strange but I started a book and now I am going to sign a document that will mean it ends with me having a full role of black tape wound round my mouth so I cannot share the horrors of the last few years. My heart says lose the house, go bankrupt and tell the world but I have a family so my head says enough is enough, they have lost their old mum forever so lets sign on the dotted, pay off the debts and live like we did when the whole gang were at home. Macaroni and mince are the big yins specialities not to mention his wonderful broccolli mix with the secret recipe. Decision made I feel, well not great, but I can close a door and move on. Start caring for others properly (I did sponsor a third world child when I got my promotion ten years ago) thank goodness I completed the term and didnt let her down.

Anyway today (awake since 3 a.m.) I am going to write down whati need to do and tick the list (Oops the cuckoo clock has woken up, the big yin threatens to shoot it regulary)

Lots to do (omg) so must go

Love Loopy Loo

message to pam- cant remember how to text but Jem is driving me to yours this morning so WAKE UP. xx

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• #6 Comment from jmoqueen 
  3/9/08 2:57 PM | Permalink

  Awww I hope you don't go back into that black hole ~ it must be scary thinking it could happen.  Well we are here to support you whatever you choose to do xx
  
  Jenny
  
  http://journals.aol.co.uk/Jmoqueen/MyLife
• #5 Comment from adonnainparis 
  3/8/08 12:58 PM | Permalink

  Hope you get a better night's sleep tonight!  I hate not being able to sleep worse than anything.  It's so boring just to stare at the dark walls.  Have a good visit with your sister!
  Donna
• #4 Comment from chat2missie 
  3/8/08 10:36 AM | Permalink

  Enjoy your time with Pam and hope you sleep better today.
  Missie
• #3 Comment from jeadie05 
  3/8/08 10:10 AM | Permalink

  Sorry to heasr you had a bad night ,close the door ,and try not to dwell on the thoughts you have when you cant sleep ,Pam will show you lots of magic things you can do here ,feel better soon ...love Jan xx
• #2 Comment from lv2trnscrb 
  3/8/08 9:49 AM | Permalink

  hoping tonight you can sleep better and that you enjoy your time with Pam learning how to maneuver through J-Land; it really is easy to do and the best thing is people are so friendly they are willing to help too
  
  betty