Remembering to exhale ~

thoughts

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 21:36:23 GMT

~ A truly beautiful woman ~

I love this photo of her...she is

a goddess and is where she has

all the love and acceptance she

looked so hard for when she was

here with us.

note on below entry lol

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 01:14:52 GMT

I didn't write the quote, I found it online ~ I know appreciate is misspelled lol ~ I can't change it :( bummer... it's lovely none the less! Blessings*

more updates

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 23:23:34 GMT

Hello again everyone !

All I can say about the weather in Texas is that it is HOT beyond hot really, it's broiling ~ it got to 100 degrees yesterday with complete humidity and I believe it was that again today. It's supposed to be that way throughout the week and most probably till September actually. Thank Goddess for Air Conditioning I couldn't stand it otherwise...I'd be ill all the time, I've never dealt with heat well before and with getting older it's not any better. I can't wait for Autumn to get here. I get repetitious about the weather don't I? Sorry (shrug) merely how I feel lol.

Heathen ~ well, I'm supposed to take Heathen in for another X-Ray this week, the vet thinks maybe he has some nerve damage in his lower spine, if not a ruptured or a disc that isn't where it should be. He is still incontinent so I am having to put dog diapers on him, the poor man, he get's two baths a day (not all over just his lower body) his prednisone and antibiotics...he is raw (down below) from the urine (cat urine for those that don't know is extraordinarily potent stuff) I'd bathe him more but the vet said only twice a day. I'm going to have to start putting neosporin on him and I worry terribly, I try not to think about negative parts of what is wrong with him, don't want to feed the energy that way. So please, continue with your prayers etc. for my Baby? I very much (and Heathen) appreciate them.

We had our new TV delivered day before yesterday with a really nice stand... it's a 60" Mitsubishi DLP HDTV... it's great and I can see the menu for the 1st time in ages without getting right up to it or with contacts in Isn't that nice?? I think it is. It's so vivid and sharp! (the picture that is LOL).

I'm in the process of cooking dinner ~ Bar B Que Pork Ribs with Pork Brisquit, Baked Beans (cooked nice and slow, both of them) and a salad. Cindy's Pop says he'd marry me for those ribs LOL because I cook them so nice and slow they always turn out melt in your mouth and off the bone wonderful. That's what I'm told anyway, I'd the worst critic when it comes to my cooking. I baked some bread on Saturday too.

Okay, I hope everyone is fine. Have a great week...

Blessings* Teresa

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 16:32:38 GMT

hee hee hee me again! wanted to bring to your notice (awareness) that the "American Family Association" is currently unable to release their fascination with "homosexual" America. Now they are attacking McDonalds for their stand on supporting gay and lesbian rights...

The "American Family Associations" views on Homosexuality and the "war".

Here is the link to a article about said "boycott" ~ "AFA calls for boycott of McDonalds"

Who woulda figured that we (gay/lesbians) would be such a threat against Religious bigots? what is it they fear? their supposed belief that gays and lesbians are out to "corrupt" their youth? that, higher power forbid (Goddess in my case), we as citizens of this country should be allowed to, as couples, files our taxes together? that, as a couple, be able to claim our partners on our health insurance? that we be allowed to have a voice in our partners healthcare? that we have a choice to be able to carry out our partners final wishes if it ever came to be? that we could walk down the street holding hands and whispering sweet nothings in each other's ears without being verbally assaulted, physically attacked, called "sicko's", "weirdos", appalling in the higher powers eyes? to be judged, rediculed, punished, jailed, fired from our jobs? etc. etc. etc.? do you think your GOD (AFA's GOD) condones the hate, fear mongering, prejudice and ignorance that they extole the virtues of? for some reason (call me silly) I don't think your (the AFA's again) would appreciate that ~ the higher power made each of us, there is a purpose for each of us and that higher power loves each and every one of us. I could react with anger...initially I did feel anger, now what I feel is sadness, pity ~ yet I hold a wonder within myself the "why" of it. Christianity is not the only religion out there, there are so many other beliefs out there ~ yours is not the only one.

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 12:54:04 GMT

Good Morning all ~

I'm sitting here at the computer at a quarter till 8 in the A.M. ~ didn't sleep well last night was up every couple hours, some of it was because of Heathen he was yowling a few times during the night, some of it was Cindy, her tummy has been bothering her for the past few nights and not sure why, she thinks it could be she is getting too hot during the day and it has been VERY hot the last couple of weeks here. The weather man said last night that yesterday was the hottest day we've had this summer & that's saying alot. It's miserable. I'm waiting faithfully for Autumn and Winter to get here, will be sooooo happy when it does!

Heathen has been on his prednisone and antibiotics since Thursday and it seems to be helping him a bit, his spirits are better, he doesn't seem to be running a fever etc. but he still is having trouble with his back legs and can't lift his tail yet, I hope it clears up soon I feel so bad for him, he's such a independent creature and he's frustrated and miserable.

Thank you to all that have commented about my Baby ~ it means a lot to me that you care enough to do so. Makes my heart happy and takes away some of my "cynic".

Work has been kind of slow the past couple of weeks also, yesterday I was just ticked off in general (same ol', same ol') about laziness and just "don't give a damn" attitude prevelant in my co workers (not all mind you but the majority).

Cindy has it rough too and she doesn't work in air conditioning! I feel for her so much and wish it weren't so for her ~ but it's her career and she will do what she can to progress with it.

Menopause and hot flashes have been setting in with a vengeance!! ughhhhh I hate it! but I will be very glad when I don't have my Moondays OR the Menopause to worry about lol. I'll be in my Crone stage of life once it's over with. It's amazing throughout the history (patriarchal and A.D.) how much emphasis males (not all but enough of them) & through doing so created the same stigma within women themselves...that so much of a woman's value is based on her ability to bear children and once she can't anymore she's not worth as much? WRONG ~ once you enter into Crone stage (after Menopause) you are stronger, you have less things tying you down, you are wise (most anyway)... there is SO much to be done still!! and you don't have to worry about your Moondays holding you back or all the crap that goes along with it.

Today Cindy and I are going to take her nephew to a indoor water park ~ I'm so not wearing a swimsuit lol ~ but those two will...I'll just take a book and read while I wait. I hope it will be fun for them both ~ I'm in charge of the camera ROFL ~ that's scarey.

Going to go for now, everyone have a great rest of the weekend.

Blessings*

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 01:53:22 GMT

I just got through watching a movie on Showtime 2 called "Freedom Writers" ~ all I can say is I recommend it, a excellent, truly excellent movie, makes you think and realize there is always a struggle out there much larger than yours. (blink) wow ~ now that's a thought isn't it? sometimes I think we sit in complacency and ignore things going on around us because they make us uncomfortable and take us out of our comfort zone. Wake up and smell the roses... there is always a condition out there worse than our own personal reality. Check it out...here is a video from You Tube with one of the songs from the soundtrack, listen to the words... if I can, I'll find the lyrics and post them below the video for those that can't "hear" these words. Check into watching this movie...Hilary Swank stars in it. ((((Indigo)))) Sistah dear...

Blessings*

A Dream

I am happy
I am I am happy
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
[One day]
We gonna work it out oh oh
We gonna work it out oh oh
We gonna work it out
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
We gonna work it out oh oh
we gonna work it out oh oh
we gonna work it out
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
[that one day]
that one day
all of the people and myself
are gonna find a better way
My dream is to be free
my dream is to be
my dream my dream is to be
my dream is to be
my dream is to be free

A search for brighter days
I ride through the maze of the madness
struggle is my address
where pain and crack lives
gunshots coming from sounds of blackness
given this game with no time to practice
born on the blacklist
told I'm a little average
A life with no cabbage
that's no money if you're from where I'm from
funny,
I just want some of yours son
dark clouds seem to follow me
alcohol that my pops swallowed bottle me
no apology
I walk with a boulder on my shoulder
it's a cold war
I'm a colder shoulder
I fight the same fight that made Martin Luther the king
I ain't usin' it for the right thing
in-Between lean and the fiends
hustle and the schemes
I put together pieces of a dream
I still have one

I am happy
I am I am happy
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
[One day]
We gonna work it out oh oh
We gonna work it out oh oh
We gonna work it out
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
We gonna work it out oh oh
we gonna work it out oh oh
we gonna work it out
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
[that one day]
that one day
I'ma look deeper than myself
are gonna find a better way
My dream is to be free
my dream is to be
my dream my dream is to be
my dream is to be
my dream is to be free

The world see me lookin' in the mirror
images of me gettin' much clearer
dear self,
I wrote a letter just to better my soul
if I don't express it,
then forever I hold inside
I'm from a side where we outta control
rap music and the hood play a fatherly role
my story like yours, yo, gotta be told
tryin' to make it from a gangsta to a Godlier role
and Jewish people in cold caves
hate has no color or age
flip the page
now my rage became freedom right
write dreams in the dark
they far, but I can see em
I believe in heaven more than hell
blessings more than jail
In the ghetto, let love prevail
with a story to tell
my eyes see the glory of, well,
the world waitin' for me to yell
I have a dream

I am happy
I am I am happy
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
[One day]
We gonna work it out oh oh
We gonna work it out oh oh
We gonna work it out
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
We gonna work it out oh oh
we gonna work it out oh oh
we gonna work it out
[Soundclip: I have a dream]
I got a dream
[that one day]
that one day
all of the people and myself
are gonna find a better way
My dream is to be free
my dream is to be
my dream my dream is to be
my dream is to be
my dream is to be free

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 00:38:27 GMT

I thought this was tooooooo funny LOL ~ but then I have a strange sense of humor at times...

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 11:41:42 GMT

Good Morning Everyone ~

Update on Heathen ~ well, apparently he really, REALLY irritated what was wrong with his hips originally! on top of the irritation with that he now has a bladder infection, hence the "dribble" that won't stop. I'm having to bathe him 3 times a day with a shampoo that you don't have to wash out ( just the rear portion of his body) which I can tell he finds totally yucky. She put him on a very high dose of prednesone <spelling> and antibiotics, as well as something I have to give him once a day to help with his bowels (this since the muscles are all seized up & he can't himself) and did a full bloodwork panel. Cost monetarily $200 ~ price paid? relief for his Momma and priceless that it wasn't something life threatening. I will know more when the vet calls this morning with the results of his blood panel. She was hesitant about the steroids because of his diabetes... we've been keeping that under control thru his diet and she worries about that changing and creating a opening to where he has to take insulin. I really worry about that also because there have been quite a few cases where a pet has to start taking insulin and they become blind. Please offer up prayers, blessings, good thoughts and positive energy towards my Baby. Thank all of you that responded yesterday... it means a lot to me!

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 12:29:11 GMT

I have a favor to ask all of you ~ This as most of you know is my Baby ~ Heathen. Somehow or other a week ago Monday, he somehow twisted something in his lower back and since then he has not been able to move his rear legs correctly, or lift his tail... it has eased a little bit since this happened but not enough to stop it completely ~ he is having trouble urinating etc. and he wets himself... I'm really worried about him (he is 13 years old or so and a BIG boy 25 lbs. to be exact) I'm taking him to the vet this morning to get her to do something and help him, I've been giving him baby aspirin once every 72 hours and that seems to have helped a little bit but not nearly enough. My heart would literally break if something happened to him, he's been my anchor for so many years now & has helped me when no one else was there to do so. Other than Cindy he's my best friend and loves me. Please send out a prayer or whatever it is you do that my little man will be ok. Will let you know later the results of his vet's visit. Hugz*

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 12:47:58 GMT

For Cindy ~ I love you Baby.....forever and beyond.