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Subject: Reflections Of What Used To Be
Time: 6:54:00 PM MST
Author: stopherrich
Mood: Hopeful
Music: Infatuation - Christina Aguilera
I let someone turn me into this person the passed few days. I don't like being this person and I never have. And after a day or two of sitting and wondering about why I was feeling so shitty, I decided that I am no longer going to be that guy. I have always looked at change as being something that I would be uncomfortable with. The last year and a half have been nothing but changing times for me. The cogs are always turning and the hamster wheel that I am in shows no sign of slowing down. It's for the best...the sooner I get to this better version of me the sooner I will have a smile on my face again.
The only reason I get hurt is because I LET others hurt me. Now I am adopting a new attitude that won't allow that to happen to me any longer. I figure that people come and go in my life for a reason. Some for good reasons, other for not so good reasons. I am content with the good, the bad and the ugly. For the bad and ugly, I know the signs to look for and what to do when they present themselves. MOVE ON. The good will always be welcome and I will enjoy the person that I am. I have met a few nice people lately and I am eager to connect with them in ways that I have never connected with guys in the past. Thankfully I am no longer looking for sexual impulses to fuel my desire to make friends. I have no plans on becoming someones next big thing. As far as I am concerned...I am married to the idea of making myself into a nicer person.
Peace!
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