Stoopid Quepid

his words came out like inaudible phrases. like a ghost whispering into my ear they set my soul at ease. barely hanging on to the sounds they made  I could lay there and focus on the form his mouth took when he'd say "always" and I took it to mean forever. listless and half in and out of a dream I would feel him hold me. I would feel his breath on the back of my neck. his strong embrace overpowered me as I clutched on to my body pillow beggin for every second to be with him before my eyes opened up. before my brain realized that he was not there. and before it hit me again that my life was empty in my waking days. his scent lingered. his touch...still soft on my arms. his lips still firm on the back of my shoulders as the morning light always found its way into my eyes. just moments after he would say..."I love you...I always have." and then he would fade away from me until the next sleep when my heart and soul called to him.

I wonder where you are all of the time. I wonder if you are sitting in the room next to me as I am pouring my heart out to the blind world that won't read what I say.  I see your spirit in the eyes of those who would have me, if only they were to take a chance. I hope that you still feel me and still need me, but I also hope that you're finally at rest. Someday our paths will cross again. I hope that you can love me enough to let me let you go and find something to be hopeful for again. I love you...I always have...no matter where you are. Always

Peace!

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