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Nothing We Say Can Make It Go Away.
This isn't going to be a happy entry, actually this is going to be a very angry entry. I am sooooooo upset, angry, worried, confused, lost, and so many other emotions all mixed together.
Yesterday I went to pick my dress up for my best friends Wedding. So when I got home and tired it on I called her to let her know how it fit (it is way to big). ANYWHO, after I told her she said she got bad news from her doctor. You see she has been really sick for the past year, back and forth to doctors trying to figure out what in the world was wrong with her.
First she had a cyst on her ovaries, when it burst it left nerve damage that was causing her a lot of pain. Then they found pre-cancerous cells on her cervix, they did a biopsy. It took weeks to get the results back, but she got them back yesterday. She has cervical cancer. When she told me all I could do was cry, because I know she is hurting a lot right now and nothing I say or do can take away the pain and heartache she feels.
My best friend who has been through way to much heartbreak in her life has cancer, she is only 22. Now her doctors are taking things one day at a time. No matter what though cancer is not curible, even if they fight this it could come back. She has to deal with that and it really fucking sucks. This is happening to one of the most sweetest, caring friends I have ever had. She has been there no matter what for the last 19 years. I have to be there for her, but I just don't know what to say, I don't know what to do. I feel sooooooo helpless, I don't want to say the wrong things to her.
I feel so lost for her, I wish it was me instead. This just isn't fair. And I swear if one of you comes in here saying well life isn't fair screw you!!! I don't want to hear it.
I just want my friend to be alright, this isn't supposed to be happening to her.
I love you so much Audrey!!
Sorry if I was a little rude in this entry, I hope you understand.
Me
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Sorry to hear about your friend, Cindy. There's something important in what you said, though:
<<No matter what though cancer is not curible, even if they fight this it could come back.>>
Depending on the stage of the cancer she has, there are some stages in which less than 5% of patients have any recurrence at all.
More details can be found here:
http://patient.cancerconsultants.com/cervical_cancer_treatm ent.aspx?id=675
I hope she's in the 5% who will never have to go through this again.
Take care and be well.
Patrick -
Cindy,
I'm so sorry. I know there is nothing I can do or say, but I'm so sorry. - Keep the Faith. I know that's hard. My grandmother got cervical cancer and did beat it after a long fight and it hasn't come back. and Yes, she had to have a hysterectomy. Of course she couldn't have kids, thus my mom is adopted. And we have to watch things closely, even after all this time . . . but it can be beat. Keep your chin up. - I'll be praying for you and her. . . and in the mean time. . .love her every opportunity you get.
HUGS!!
Holly
7/10/06 6:18 PM
But keep hope - cervical cancer is very treatable. If they can remove and treat this round, and she gets checked regularly, she may be able to avoid getting it again. Just keep the faith, and pray that she will get through this!
Love,
Danielle