Welcome to my Life

Wow. I realized tonight just how much this Joey thing had an affect on me. I went out with this guy tonight. Not like a real date..just went to watch a movie..and he's a great guy. Good looking...very well mannered...respectful..smart..funny...and I couldn't do a damn thing. Why? Because my guard is up on every guy because of Joey. I can't even enjoy myself with a guy at this point because I don't want to be hurt. I don't even want to make an attempt to think I could be happy with someone because I feel like I'd get hurt in the end. Sucks really. I mean.. I just like... grrrr.... I feel like just hanging out with a guy..I'm like..what will Joey think... Obviously he doesn't care about what I do... so why would it matter what I do? I'm just fucked up I guess.

Anyways..I went to see Dawn yesterday at Westfield State..God I'm so glad I transferred out of there. Haha poor Dawn. She was so hung over...she started puking...yuck. But as always...it was a good time with her. We went to see THE WEDDING DATE...awww buttons what a good movie. My two favorite lines:

"I'd miss you, even if I never met you" and "I'd rather fight with you then make love to anyone else" AWWW  BUTTONS

Then we went to Friendly's for dinner where I enjoyed a lovely bacon cheeseburger (in honor of Jill).

Oh hahaha. Then Renee brought her 4 year old brother over...God is he cute...we played tag around the table....and well I told him to take 2 empty soda bottles and bang them on the door of all the other people on my floor..and he did...HE ROCKS!! I  have a picture of him doing it. He's so cool I love that kid!

I went home today to watch the Daytona 500....fucking Jeff Gordon...I hate him. And now I hate Kurt Busch..mother fucker helps Jeff win over Dale Jr..who fucking does that? He fucking made a lot of enemies. So that's kinda a bad start to the Nextel Cup season.

Other than that...yeah...that's about it. I have the week off which will be spent doing work for class. Night all.

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