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HELLO AGAIN,  MANNN I'VE CHANGED

about two + years ago i started this blog. and i totally forgot about it. i was wondering onto my aol account and found it. when reading my old entries i started to tear up inside. i can't believe this shit that i wrote down. i can't believe the pain i felt. why did i feel it? i remember dating johnny, i remember it was the first time i ever had feelings for anyone. two years have gone by and he is still in my life. he's not a boyfriend.. a friend that comes and goes when he feels like it. he is and has been dating bianca, that bitch. '

within the two years alot has happened, alot of sad shit, and alot of happy shittt.

i dated robbie, wilfred, robbie again, and wilfred again. oh and paul after his father died, and i broke up with him christmas eve a while ago. but the one person i want to talk about is andrew, i met him the end of 8th grade, and the momment he walked in my science class i never felt more.... more excited, i was excited to get to know him, become his friend and hopefully more. but the only thing in my way was this kid, phill, who for some reason ''loved'' me. but honestly i think he might be gay, not to be mean, i have NO issue with gay people, but yeah. so me and andrew got to know eachother and we hung out all cottilion, 8th grade dance, it was sooo much fun. he gave me a rose, i still have it. but yeah so the night before our feildtrip to holiday hill he asked me out, i hessitated because i worried about what ppl would say, but i didn't care anymore, i liked the kid and NOTHING was getting in my way. so i said yes. phill found out, went onto one of his bitchy modd swings, my friend samantha thought i was causing drama so she sided with him, and now she realises how much drama phill gets ppl into. so yeah we dated for a bit, we'd always fight but it was fun. but it was over the summer and i never got to see him, it killed me. one day i went to the center with sam, and he was there too, i just wanted to hang with my friends so i think he got pissed. i dnt know exacttly what happend, but something happened between him and bianca that made him refuse to talk to me, so a week later after getting completely ignored i break up with him... and HIS FRIEND CALLS ME , like wow, i got pissed i told him to tell andrew to call me. so he did i explained shit, but he really never. to this day i dont know exacttly what happend. and it still hurts. i always try talking to him, and he comes up to me in the hallways and he has told me he still has feelings for me, and i told him i still have them for him to, but he won't do anything about it. i guess if it was ment to be it would.

well anyways, i went to wildwood last year, it was a blast, bamboozle, was amazing. webster to see kill hannah (2), 30 seconds to mars, paparoach. <3 last weekend i seend OZZZZZZY & ROB ZOMBIE. which was amazinggg.

oh yeeah also with in these years i've smoked pot, got drunk, got a monroe, getting a tattoo next month, attending highschool, i've been vegitarian YAY meee, paulie got out of jail, aunt t john micheal chris and lil bridget moved to missori, keith died ): still havent talked to my father, died my hair, got it cut, a hole bunch of different shit.

lifes treating me ok.

<333

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