~*~It'S aLl Me~*~

dammm, where do i starttt?

well tuesday i went back to school after the long weekend, and for some reason i had a bad day, i guess i was just so tired. but yea nothing too exciting.. but nick came over, it was cool i guess all we did was waltch movies. like when i have guys over i guess sometimes thats what we do, but we usally dont waltch the movie, if you get wat i'm saying. but nicks not like that, so idunno. wednesday,i dyed some more of my hair, nothing tooo exciting. today i had a guidance appointment to change 3rd period.. yet there were no classes ): so i'm a house aid? which i do nothing and weird seniors talk to me about weird things. but yeah. so today i'm suppose to get my hookah(:! i hope i do i hope i do! oh yeah today in gym pat couldn't even be in mine and megans group it was like we have cooties, ahahah like in 7th grade all he would do is bother me, and now he won't even talk to me.

oh yeah i was reading the older entrys and i love how i made it sound like i hated 7th grade, but 7th and 8th grade were like the best years EVERRR, trust meee. they were<3 i miss those days ):

ok ok don't tell anyone =p sillly, but maybe i do like nick. weird yea. but idunno he has a good personality, and he's pree cuteh, in a cute kid way. and he hates andrew, i always date ppl that hate my last x (: i dont get why, but i tend to. ahhaa but every day i think about andrew, i miss him so much we could have fell in love hard. i was already falling. whenever i see him my heart stops my mind freezes and i sweat in places you'd never know you could, i could feel every pulse in my body pounding. WHY!? i haven't actually been with him for months.. but everytime i hear certain songs, i feel my heart ripping. i want to cry but i can't, if i start i wont be able to stop. i want to stop careing about him, but i can't. i want to let him go, but if i let him go, i'll lose myself ):

i know it's kinda a crappy picture, but i love it. and i miss it. so much ): he doesn't even understand.

like every once in a while he'll text me, or call randomly, and tell me that he still has feelings for me, and i told him i still have feelings for him.. but he won't do anything about it. why not? i'm ready to be with him again. yea it was tough but i can manage. i can i can. why can't hee? i know he still loves me. we went through so much together. we've overcame so much shit. why give it up so easily. well i'm not.

=Pahhhhhhh. i'll addd more laterr.

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