The Next Wonder Woman

12:36:22 AM EST
Feeling Hopeful
Hearing I've Got Better Things To Do ~ Terri Clark

Well, it's 2007 now! How was everyone's holidays? Mine were like your typical roller coaster, lots of ups and lots of downs, lol. I know how most people make a New Year's resolution and I usually do myself, but this time I thought I'd make it more of a list of goals to work toward :)

It's a brand new year, time to start fresh. Last year was really hard and not one I'd ever care to relive by any means. It contained a lot of heartbreak, disappointment, troubles medically & financially and in general, alot of emotional wear & tear. But that is all in the past, time to gear up for the new year!

This year, I refuse to be controlled and dominated. I'm the one who will be making the calls from now on.

This year, I will regain my inner strength and allow myself time to heal from the recent past.

This year, men and relationships are being tossed aside. I've had it made clear to me that the one who was suppose to have loved me, does not, so rather than beating a dead horse, I chose to bury him and move on, WITHOUT any male companionship. It's just not worth it.

This year I intend to enjoy every moment I can with my son but also time for myself will become important as well

This year I get my act together and prepare for the future, no matter what it has in store for me :)

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10:14:32 PM EST
Feeling Frustrated
Hearing Toto (Don't it Feel Like Paradise) - Lynda Carter

Well, the battle is over and I lost miserably. Who knew that I'd wind up with a judge who ignored 95% of the facts and obviously had it out for me from the get go <sigh>  I was granted 3 weekends a month, with ME doing all the transportation even though I barely make enough to pay my bills. My son is the one that gets the worst end of it though, instead of living with the nuturing, loving parent that he wants, he ended up with his father (who called in his mommy to come take over my role as care giver @@

I DO love being on my own and sometimes it feels like a dream come true to not have to be bullied and treated as if I wee a child all the time. But then again, I look at the fact that I don't have my son, that due to alot of fictious crap my husband came up with, I'm now treated as if I were a criminal by his school and ex-neighbors, as well as the quack therapist that my husband has my son seeing.  I mean really, what therapist worth the paper his diploma is printed on is going to actually blame the CHILD for his parents splitting up, saying this would have never happened had he been a better kid?

Sometimes I wish my husband would have loved me enough to fight for me. Seeing that he just simply threw up his hands and thought "oh well" when I left was very hurtful. Then to have him issue a restraining order on me, keeping me away from my son, it broke my heart. I have ALWAYS been my sons primary (and in most cases SOLE) caregiver and to have him yanked away from me is just more than I can bare :(

Sometimmes I feel so confused and lonely and down I'm not sure how I'll get through all this. I can spit fire towards my husband when I talk to him because I'm just so angry and hurt all at once, but deep down, I really wish he'd be my knight in shining armor that I once believed he was.

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1:12:45 AM EST
Feeling Hopeful
Hearing Jesus Take the Wheel - Carrie Underwood

   Well, today is the day, I must prepare for battle. Today we discover just how fair the legal system really is. I have gathered my evidence and will speak my peace. Hopefully I will be handed a favorable outcome. I will do my best to hide my fear, as any warrior would.

    Just with any plot in the superhero world, I have a loved one being held ransom, forcing me to don my armour and come out fighting. The villan has the one thing that will cripple my judgement and still the one thing that will keep me focused and determined not to faulter.

    As prepared as I am, it's in God's hands as to what happens next. Hopefully he has heard my prayers and will answer them favorably. No matter how well a super-hero is prepared and no matter how strong they are and what magical accessories they possess, GOD makes the final call, so I sing....."Jesus take the wheel, take it from my hands, cause I can't do this on my own. I'm letting go, give me one more chance. Save me from this road I'm on. Jesus take the wheel"

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12:32:50 AM EST
Feeling Sad
Hearing The Sound of Silence

As I unlock my door and step into my apartment, I’m greeted with the wagging nubbin of my boxer, Appollo. I put my things down (I always end up having my arms full some how, lol) and pet the excited puppy dog, praising him for not chewing up my bedpost or leaving a calling card on the carpet. After Appollo is walked and back inside, I feel the quietness of the apartment start to creep in.<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />

 

What exactly is in my future? Am I destined to be alone for the rest of my life? My recent bouts with men have turned up foul results, leaving them on a some-what permanent black-list. I mean really, to have some one who was to suppose to love me forever go and do the mean, cruel things that he did and then having a different man, whom I thought was a decent man go and do what HE did……I just have to say my faith in any man at this point is NOT very high.

 

If I died in my apartment, who would know? Who would care? I could be dead for days until anyone bothered to knock on my door or call my cell phone. For the first time in my life, I am truly alone. I’ll slowly begin to simply fade away into non-existance, becoming “what’s her name that use to…….”, living alone with my dog as my only companion.

 

Yep, you could say that right now, I’m being a bit pessimistic. I am usually optimistic, however that’s not paying the bills! And it’s hard to be positive when you can’t afford to put gas in your tank or do your laundry.

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2:34:41 PM EDT
Feeling Angry
Hearing Bye-Bye Baby - Madonna

This is coming from one ticked off Wonder Woman. I'm relatively a calm person and can take quite alot others dish out, but even I have my limits!

Something very dear to me was taken from a man who was SUPPOSED to have loved me. This was done through his lying and taking advantage of my trusting personality. I promise this, NEVER will I be so naive and if he thinks his actions will un-nerve me and get the best of me, he better think again. He may have won the battle but mark my words, he WILL loose the war!

His actions will have swift and harsh consequences as he will soon come to understand that toying with me was a HUGE mistake.

 

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3:20:17 PM EDT
Feeling Loopy
Hearing 19 Somethin' - Mark Wills

     I had an interesting question posed to me and since I'm now semi-settled into the new place, I thought I'd use it as an update to my journal....."When did you become fascinated with dressing as Wonder Woman, getting chloroformed or otherwised subdued and then tied up?"

     Well, without completely giving away my age ;) I WAS a child of the 70's.  This was back when every house wasn't equiped with a playstation, home computer and DirectTV with hundreds of channels.  We had to use something that's unfortunately becoming a rarity amongst children today.....our imagination! And BOY did I have plenty of that! I was constantly playing out scenarios with space creatures, cops and robbers, superheros etc. Mom thought I was nuts and needed to get my head out of the clouds, but dad didn't mind and was happy to give us empty big boxes for our spaceships and overlooked the 'fort' we had built in the den with blankets and chairs. My family was by no means rich, so they could never see the purpose is buying me the more expensive bathing suit resembling Wonder Woman's costume, so after begging and begging to no avail, I began making my own.

      The one I'll have to say I was most proud of is the one that didn't last long, LOL. It took the longest to put together and only lasted for one day of 'saving the world' but hey, for a kid with little resources in elementary school, it came out pretty good!

      It all started out with my being dragged along to a garage sale my mom went too. They lady had these plastic long fern leaves that were glittered in silver for 50 cents. I had brought a couple bucks from my allowance with me and one look at the leaves, I immediately thought "Hey! Those would make an AWESOME eagle for a WW costume!" So I bought them.  I had a bathing suit at home that was a solid color (Fuschia, but hey, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do!) added to it a 'jeans' belt, sweat bands for the bracelts and tiara (they were red, white & blue striped) I added a red paper star to each and a red thin nylon puppy leash to my belt for my lasso.  No boots, Nikes had to do but the stars were flashy. I drew stars with good old Elmer's glue all over the bottom of the suit, dusting the glue with gold glitter. I had also used the glue for my fern-eagle emblem. Then I was set! I dragged my cousin, Rhonda into my plot as well, she had the same suit only in emerald green. So she was Wonder Girl.

      I, as Diana Prince (hair was up, glasses on and I wore a trench coat over my suit) and her as Drusila (in a trench coat) did some spying on the bad guys (aka my brother and the neighbor boys) When we decided they were up to no good, we dashed behind the bushes and spun! I, as Lynda would do, took off my glasses while looking to make sure the coast was clear. Slipped my specs in my pocket and spun. While spinning I whipped my pin outta my hair and threw off my trench coat. Ta Da! There I stood, in my WW costume that would make Crayola proud! LOL

     We spent a good 2 hours in battle until the boys got the upper hand......they got a water hose and ambushed us! Off came our eagles and stars! Oh well, it was fun. We called it a day and I without thinking threw my suit, inside out, in the dirty clothes hamper.

      Well, mom thought I was looney tunes already for the costume. But was NOT happy when she pulled out her wash load to find gold glitter through out the load! Sometimes my imagination got me into trouble and THAT was definately one of those times!

      Well I never gave up hope that one day I would have a GREAT WW costume! In 1998 I moved to SC and we had recently gotten AOL along with cable. The channels we got were new to me and one of them played WW everyday! I had almost forgotten about my childhood hero, but the first time I saw her again, the memories came flooding back! I immediately ran to my pc and did a search. I was amazed to find so much out there on WW and have been sucked into it ever since!

      My dream of having a great costume has come true now, I've got one of the best costumes out there. I made the cape myself, and let me tell you, THAT was no small feat! Getting to the question at hand (did you think I was going to dodge it? LOL) I've always been fascinated with dressing up as WW and any other character. I'm an actress, it's what I do. It seems I am fantastic at becoming other people and it's something I thoroughly enjoy. It's a healthy escape from the real world, where you can rest assured that you don't have to worry about what to do or say or how it's all going to end because all of that is pre-determined. When it's over, even if I lost, I can simply change clothes and leave it behind with no condemnation for it.

      What everyone needs to understand is that for me, it's not a fetish. Do I like getting tied up or subdued? Eh, it's fun but it's because it's just part of the role, not because of the simple act itself. Do I get off on all of this? No, I don't. Too me, it's an acting role in a skit. I LOVE acting and I'm good at it, if I do say so myself, but it's in no way related to a fetish, no way sexual for me at all. But what can I say? I'm as close to the real Wonder Woman that you will ever find. As we all know, she's tough and firm and can kick major butt, and at the same time, she's got compassion beyond your understanding and a certain innocence about her that allows to to dress in her Amazonian garb and NOT see herself as a sexual being and NOT use it as a tool in combat. True her beauty can be distracting, but it's not because she's doing it on purpose. Maybe THAT's what makes her even MORE attractive :)

     

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7:10:31 PM EDT
Feeling Quiet
Hearing Wandrin' Star - Lee Marvin, Paint Your Wagon Sndtrk

Well, I've FINALLY moved into my new place, after set backs upon set backs. Considering I never wanted to move in the first place, it's been kind of like peeling a bandage off a hairy arm REAL slow, but I'm here. I'm still a tad displaced and surrounded by boxes, so it'll take me a while to get my barrings but I'm going to do my best!

The pictures in the last couple entries were at my old place, just different angles. my new place has no yard, so it's going to be a real challenge finding places to shoot at all. Two words come to mind.........ROAD TRIPS!!!! LOL

Hang tight guys and let me get settled, I'll be posting as soon as I can!! :)

Thanks!!! :)

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11:11:34 PM EDT
Feeling Hopeful

    Another question was posed to me, it dealt with what I thought about the golden lasso......What were it's exact properties, stengths, abilities/powers. Etc And such ponderings as 'What would happen if other superheros (Wonder Woman, herself, included) were caught up in it' So here are my thoughts...

    The Golden Lasso was one of the magical gifts awarded Wonder Woman upon her earning the position of Ambassador to the man's world in the first place. It is made of an industructable material that is golden in color, but unknown to anyone (Not even the Amazons themselves). It was fashioned by the All-Mighty Powers That Be and being so, is completely industructable by any man or creature as well as any magical, mystical being, good or evil.

    ANYONE who is captured within it WILL be forced to tell the truth, this goes for superheroes as well. The stipulation that comes into play is that the lasso must be held by someone on the other end, thus a transfering of their will on the captured, whether their will be a forceful outing of truth, falling a hypnosis-like order, that the captured WILL obey and carry out after release or even being forced to forget a particular bit of information or happening. Once the person handling the Golden Lasso lets go, the captured party is no longer bound by the lasso's power and it becomes as ordinary as any other piece of rope.

    The length of the lasso stays steady at an easy-to-carry, yet clearly distinguishable length, but will easily grow to the length and sturdiness needed and mentally transferred by the handler. It also follows supreme direction of the handler, basically 'going to and doing exactly as what it's told'. This is why it's of the utmost importance that the handler be of keen intelligence.

    The Golden Lasso is a very strong item of special power and was given to Wonder Woman with the advisment to use it with compassion. Compassion because one must be willing to use it for 'need-to-know' purpose only, it is not something to be used for frivolous things, hynotic party tricks and to make people forget important moments of their life. Compassion is one trait that seperates Wonder Woman fromthe villans she fights and even from other superheros that help her. Compassion is one of the components of this Golden Lasso as well as one of the requirements to properly handle it. May the Golden Lasso never fall into the wrong Hands, but may it's compassion fall into the hands of many :)

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2:30:05 AM EDT
Feeling Hopeful
Hearing American Soldier- Toby Keith

So how was everyone's July fourth? Did you set off fireworks and have your fair share of hot dogs and hamburgers? Mine started off with a bang alright but it wasn't due to a brillant display of lights, it was the sound of my Dad doing some major demolition to my master bath while I was sleeping in my master bedroom, LOL

You see, that's why I've been AWOL for a while, I've been house hunting and it's not always as easy as it seems. I swear, it's easier to win an arm wrestling match with Superman than it is to find a house that fits personal taste and style! Meanwhile, the house I'm in is being 'flipped' by my parents and with no place to go, we're still here, surrounded by packed and stacked boxes as well and paint buckets, saws, tool belts and exposed piping. It's a challenge, but it's one that will make the new house seem like a dream come true even though it's not quite the perfect fit!

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8:49:45 PM EDT
Feeling Happy
Hearing Erotica - Madonna

   Okay, the first question I received was by private email and their question was "I love to see female superheros be chloroformed, knocked out, etc. is it okay to feel this way, to have this kind of fetish?"

    We all have things that turn us on, that really float our boat, fly our kite, whatever term you want to use. A fetish, as I understand it, goes a tad beyond that, making it a dire need. Of course, there are lines to be drawn and fetish or not we must allow ourselves to induldge in our particular pleasures while keeping within boundries. I say that as long as you are not doing anything illegal, putting others at risk or making them feel uneasy or unsafe, then go ahead, make your day!

    Anyone else have anything one their mind? :) Come on down! :)

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