Life on a Bison Farm

Last night Sneakers passed away.  I had to make the agonizing decision to have him put to sleep.

I took him to the ER and they discovered he had a tumor under his tongue which ruptured.

To be honest, I am too traumatized by the events of last night & way too heartbroken to go into alot of details but the decision was one of the most difficult ones I've made in a long time.

Both Doctors agreed and one of them even said he would have done the same if it were his cat since Sneakers faced a long road of recovery...IF he would even recover at all, the odds were he would not. 

I couldn't handle the thought of him dying in a hospital without me by his side.

Sneakers had a difficult life until he came to me, he was neglected and abused.  He was a Tuesday Tail and his story and photo can be found here if you are interested http://journals.aol.com/wwfbison/life-on-a-bison-farm/entries/2008/01/15/tuesday-tails/549

I guess I should find comfort in the fact that Sneakers would have died alone & afraid in September of last year had fate not put us together....instead he died cradled in the arms of the one who loved him so very, very much ~ me.  Sneakers finally found HIS person, I am just so sad our time together was so short, he truly deserved more.

Maybe I will find that comfort tomorrow...or the next day but I am not feeling it very much today. 

I miss him so badly, the cat house was somber and it was heart breaking not having NeakNeaks greet me this morning.

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• #53 Comment from tsalagiman1 
  4/25/08 1:31 AM | Permalink

  I am so sorry about your loss.  I know what it feels like to have to put one to sleep.  My parents and I had to put our fifteen-year-old dog to sleep, and that was one of the hardest things I have ever experienced.  I'm glad Sneakers at least had these past few months in your loving home.  That's months he would not have had otherwise.
  
  Dirk
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• #52 Comment from fowfies 
  4/23/08 12:53 PM | Permalink

  I am so sorry you lost Sneakers. I know he was loved and had a great home though, and I know he appreciated it. It sure does suck losing him. I am so sorry. Thats one thing about having animals..the heartbreak is always going to happen sooner or later. Big Hugs, Love ya, Kelly
• #51 Comment from geocachelinda66 
  4/22/08 7:25 AM | Permalink

  I'm so sorry about your loss of Sneakers.  He was a special kitty!  Linda
• #50 Comment from libragem007 
  4/18/08 3:57 PM | Permalink

  Rest In Peace, Sneakers.
  I'm sorry to read this..he is in a place where he won't feel hurt anymore.
  Gem
• #49 Comment from wumzels2 
  4/17/08 9:18 PM | Permalink

  as a cat lover, i offer my condolences, lisa.  i had to have my spooky put down 2 years ago.....he was 19 and his kidneys had failed.  your story about sneakers is such a bittersweety one.  he had a short time with you, but it made the world of difference in his little life.  be proud you did what you did to save the little darling with the serious mug of a face.  
  
  blessings to you and what you do for these poor animals.
  
  regina
  http://journals.aol.com/wumzels2/SEDUCTIONOFLIFE/