The Gag Order

Made plans to go to the game.  I want to have fun.  I want to get out more.

Woke up a few times during the night feeling sick.  (I had eaten some canned peaches and canned asparagus in the evening).  I kept thinking that maybe if I took an antacid or something, I would feel better.  But I was too tired to get up and get a rolaid.

Finally, at 6:30, I tried to get up.  Sick, sick, sick.

And just for added fun, I also had a headache.

I am SO sick of being sick.  Yesterday was not so bad; wasn't great, but wasn't THIS bad.

I figured I'd just get ready and go, anyway.  If I stopped doing anything when I feel sick, I'd never get out of bed.

There are bad days, and there are BAD ones, where I can't hardly move without a dry heave here and there (I hate to vomit, so I fight like hell!).

Today is about in between the two.

Getting ready while looking at the clock, it became clear I was getting more and more behind schedule.  What to do?

Contemplating calling and canceling, I would momentarily feel better, and keep on getting ready.

To my surprise (and relief) he called and canceled on me!  LOL!

Whew.

He wasn't feeling so good, he said.  Said he hadn't gotten much sleep. 

I suspect there is a reason for this.  One I am not all that thrilled about, but...

I am in that position where I have to decide something; listen to my gut, and get out of this situation immediately, orgive this new friend the benefit of the doubt, and hope that I am wrong...

This is that same cross road I find myself at, over and over...

I usually choose the wrong route.  I usually ignore my gut.  And it usually turns out horribly for me.

So...

I need to think.  I know I hold the answer inside myself. 

Oh, how many times my gut has been right, and I didn't trust myself...

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• #9 Comment from suzypwr 
  4/19/08 5:02 PM | Permalink

  While I do believe in going with instinct, I am not sure I trust your gut right now - it's not doing really well! You poor thing. When do you see the doctor again - or have you already, since it has been a week almost since you wrote this? I am trying again to catch up!
  
  xoxo
• #8 Comment from helmswondermom 
  4/16/08 9:12 PM | Permalink

  Well, I don't think you can go wrong by listening to that little voice in your head.
  Lori
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• #7 Comment from helloimkara 
  4/16/08 11:40 AM | Permalink

  Yes do listen to what that little voice inside of you is saying! It rarely steers you wrong! Feel better :)
  
  Kara
• #6 Comment from cuteallison1980 
  4/14/08 9:17 PM | Permalink

  I hope you are feeling better today.  Follow your gut and your heart and the answers you need will be there for you.  Never allow emotion to take over cause it clouds your judgment.  Hope you had a good day and that your tomorrow will be a happy one.  Luv ya!
  
  Allison
• #5 Comment from s0ngbird1962 
  4/13/08 11:01 PM | Permalink

  Listen to your gut & to that little voice inside....
  
                                           ....it's always right.  : )
  
  Hope you are feeling better today.